make me wanna die.

I hate you, Maths. Truly hate you!

For now you're my number one enemy. Mock exam from Psychology on Friday seems to be more fun than stupid advanced trigonometry...

I'm emotionless. Registration for UKCAT completed, now I just have to book a date for an exam...

i guess it's all alright.

IB is not a piece of cake after all which teachers seem to remind themselves like paranoid freaks. Spring break? Hahaha. Good joke, like really...

Group 4 Project is officially finished. Just presentation in front of IB coordinator and we're good to go. I don't get the idea of doing two presentations, one in Sweden and one in Poland but well... There HAVE to be something deeper when it comes to it, I can sense it. If there weren't, teachers would not give us extra job, right?! We have MORE THAN ENOUGH already.

My spring break will pass under a big, fat headline "IB SUCKS". Starting from ToK, through Maths, Psychology (who the fuck make up such stupid thing as a test from whole biological level of analysis?! Next week... Great. I'm aware that we have to know it all by May 2013 but come on... At least then we know dates.

IA from Psychology to be written until the end of school year. Yep, 29th of June. Will I manage? Hopefully.

Oh! And at the top of all of that UKCAT... I guess the registration starts soon.

So much fun. -,-

pumped up kicks.

For days like today I love being in IB. Well maybe not in IB in general but... I'm in such a good mood that I don't think anything can spoil it for now :)

After a night/morning with genetics (I missed 3 hours of English in order to revise for this stupid test...) it turned out that the test is next week. What da fuck...?! At lest I know a lot... Seems so :D

Today I realised how weird being in IB can get. When you decide to go to Starbucks on your free periods with your friend but not for gossips but to actually DO study something, you know you're in IB. All of the forms (briefing note, debriefing note, consent form and procedure step by step) for my Psychology IA are done. The deadline is 14th of May but who really cares...

move along.

It's amazing how one day can change our attitude towards life.

I feel myself again which I didn't feel in a while and almost forgot how good this feeling is. My passion for learning and school which I haven't seen since a year, came back. Everything seems to be good for now.

Also today I discovered that nothing is impossible, completing an application for a contest in a day which included writing an essay and making up a creative way of introducing myself.

Yesterday I watched a truly great movie: Something the Lord Made. It tells a story of Alfred Blalock and his co-worker, Vivien Thomas. Alfred Blalock was a pioneer in cardiac surgery and his operations on so calles 'blue babies' in 50s made surgery on the open heart possible. Great biographic movie, even for those who are not interested in Medicine at all. Passion, struggle with racism and getting to know one's value are the main factors which make it so good to watch. Ok, I'll admit it - Alan Rickmann without dobuts created a great character (Alfred Blalock) and his voice... I don't think I have to add anything to it :D

IB... Well, tonight I'm struggling with Chemistry... Energetics to be more specific. Shit. No more comments about that.

Song for today:

The All-American Rejects - Move Along

pieces.

Hi everyone,

Recently I've discovered that there are so many blogs about life in IB, struggles with exams, IAs etc., so I thought: 'why not?' and yes, here I am. 

Maybe my Polish teacher was right, at least; that I should write something. Anything. I have to agree with her that usually I have too much to say... 

In advance sorry for my English, I'm not native speaker (which probably you've already noticed) and grammar was always something I sucked at.

Ok, so just a few basic information about me. I'm from Poland and I'm currently in IB1. In the mid-September I'm applying to UK Med Schools 2013 entry, maybe later I'll write which ones... That means additional, stupid exams like UKCAT during summer (it reminds me that registration opens in a couple of days...) and BMAT somewhere near the end of October or beginning of November, I guess. I'm also considering applying to Ireland too. And by 'considering' I mean thinking really hard. But for now all this CAO thing doesn't appeal to me at all and makes me angry every time I try to learn something more about it... For now I know for sure that I'll have to sit HPAT exam in Dublin at the end of February 2013. 

Yea, right... Truly hate writing opening posts. Did it so many times in the past that I definitely won't be able to count them all... Well, maybe something about subjects I'm taking?

I was sooo much in love with the idea of being an IB student last year that everything which consisted of the word "subject" or "choice" made me alert. Now it seems really stupid, I know and when I recall those days I laugh at myself for this foolishness. Wanted to thrive academically, learn how to look at the world from the new, far better perspective... Yea, sure thing... Ended up with what? Biology, Chemistry and English B at Higher Level and Psychology, Maths, Polish A1 - Subsidiary Level. Jupi... Perfect match (not really...).

Polish is unforrunately compulsory. Good thing that my IOC is already behind me - it was a NIGHTMARE! In the end it went surprisingly well and smoothly, but the poems I had to learn about... Hate the author, hate the content and HATE the 16th century way of writing! How a man can write 19 longish, extremely dull pseudo poems about the death of his doughter?! Talking about how great she was, being not even 3 years old! Insane. And pathetic. Luckily, I've never had real problems with Polish, now we're doing books for the WL essays. I've already picked a topic, so all should be fine. 

Biology is interesting, love my teacher - one of the best I've ever had. No, wait... She IS the best teacher I've ever had. Chemistry - thought it'd be much more interesting... It turned out to be hard, boring and sometimes I have no idea what am I doing there... 

Maths... Maths is a tool of the evil. I have not problem with Maths as a subject... Just with the way it's tought at my school... Or should I say - the way it ISN'T? The teacher has totally no experience with the IB (literally). I can't understand a single thing from the way she talks and tries to explain. Even though I have to admit - she is really nice and kind but what am I going to do with that?! I need to pass my exams! Actually, ace them - admission tutors won't ask why I have a grade lower than 6, even though it's SL... 

Psychology - at the beginning I have to admit I hate these classes. Now I've started to be neutral about them, even though I'm really interested in Psychology on its own. We mostly watch movies, making things more interesting and that way (I'm speaking for myself of course) the content is easier to memorize. 

Crap, I totally forgot about English! How I could make such an unforgetable mistake... English is fine. Taking into consideration opinions of my classmates who have different teachers, I'm lucky to be in the group I'm in. 

CAS... No comment. Maybe tomorrow I'll write something about it because I have a shift at the hospice which lasts 3 hours... On SUNDAY. Who said IB is no fun? 

Just listening to Green Day '21 Guns'  and the lyrics at the beginning of the song seem sooo true!

"Do you know what we're fighting for?"

Do you? I have to admit I'm starting to have some doubts...